Batting eyelashes at me.. :D

Mocking the reality...

Perceiving the bits and pieces in me,
cursing my non-genuine insensitivity...

Everything you see, is not everything that I am..
Not wearing a mask, but being one myself.
You may not notice coz I am good at this..
oblivious to what lies underneath.

Its my life, these are my moves
Yes you won, maybe I just wanted to loose.
I may not be real, just a manipulation of myself
but sometimes even reality...

.....is not reality

and neither is the smile that I wear... :)

Why is it that at times crying heavily for 5 minutes amazingly eases your pain...more than being happy for a very long period?
Is shedding a tear more important than wearing a smile?
Why then do we keep saying that laughter is the best medicine, when we know for sure...that crying is the last resort...?

39 comments:

Cess said...

wow that s deeeeeep.... love it, still laugh is a good medicine otherwise i would have long ago committed suicide :)

tc

C.
PS: u have been tagged btw :D

Neeku said...

you just hit the core chord in me... have been feeling the same... but hang in there... things will get better .... will keep you in good thoughts... =)

mayz said...

i loved this post dude...
d pain jus comes out...not being sadistic here...m sayin this coz i relate to that...d facade is always thr...n most of d times d facade is mistook for reality...beautifully expressed...calls for an applause

n tears..well i always believe they help us to let out d poison v have in our hearts...so let em flow...they certainly do ease pain

¢яŷştąŁ said...

Who said tears are the last resort?
They make you a bit less-burdened,but they naver ease your pain,do they?
Do get over a problem is crying heartily..for a small period,and then laughing your heart out..later!
Nice blog..btw.=)

Neeku said...

Ghosh I feel like I am wearing a mask today =( ! hope all get well...

utopia said...

sometimes all you need is to cry your eyes out and lo you immediately feel better...there is nothing shameful in crying...

*HUGS*

Preeti said...

laughter is the best medicine is a purely scientific concept. something to do with our physiology.
see both laughing and crying give a tremendous amount of peace. if you are forever laughing in the face of every bloody thing you actually achieve a lot of inner peace.
at the same time when you are coiled up inside and you release it by crying, even that gives you peace because you have drained yourself out.
both are required for human beings and both are good...

lovely poem, Zubin. maybe you should write some more.

AND A WARM NEVER ENDING HUG FROM MOI!!! laugh cry ... do everything that makes you happy...ok..?

me doesnt like it if you are sad...
:-(

Sana said...

awesome post and awesome poem =)
i lykk it!!

=D

da sort of girl dat i am, im always rydin an emotional rollercoaster. n if dat aint bad...i tend to laff n cry at awkward moments...
n yeah sumtymz i feel dat im just a manipulated version of my own self.... =P if u noe wot dat means.

hav fun!!sa

Cecilia said...

I loved this..its so true..and pretty deep too..u wrote it im guessin..funny how we bloggers write at the best n worst times - or atleast I do..or sometimes just for the fun of it :) neways tc..n hope u smile soon! :)

enchanted illusionz said...

man! i thnk i jus turned ur fan..lol!

lovd it yaar..yes..sometimes shedding a tear is more imp ,esp when somethn hs broken inside

•♥•♥[V]♥•♥• said...

manipulation of myself..wow
gr8 post

i agree ..crying makes u light hearted and eases the pain.

Zubin said...

@Cess:

Thanks.. :)
Yes, you are correct...but sometimes crying our hearts out is...well...a life saving exercise. :)

Thanks for tagging, I'll do that soon.. :)

Zubin said...

@Neeku:

Things probably will get better.. :)
Maybe I will read this post some days later and feel silly about it. But of what I know about myself..that may never happen.. :)

Ahem...and you are looking great in your latest pic...so the mask I think is working wonders.. :p

Zubin said...

@Mayz:

Thank you bro...
I know you are not being sadistic. :)
Isn't it ironic. We use the mask to hide things..and then we feel bad because we did it so well..that people take us for what our mask is.. :)

And yes you are right about the tears, I realize that.

Zubin said...

@Crystal:

Hey WC here..

"They make you a bit less-burdened,but they naver ease your pain,do they?"

Actually they do.. :)

But yeah, not always..but when things are stacking up inside...It just has to get out in one way or other...Its just the natural way of cleansing our minds.. :)

"Do get over a problem is crying heartily..for a small period,and then laughing your heart out..later!"

Yes, thats the correct formula.. :)

Thanks..keep visiting.

Zubin said...

@Utopia:

Welcome to my blog..

I know there is nothing shameful about it...Just find a dark corner and let it out.. :D...and yes the effects are always immediate.. :)

*Hugz you back*

:)

Zubin said...

@Preeti:

That is exactly what I realized. I had forgotten the importance of crying I suppose..

don't worry, I am happy all the time..or at least most of it..

"lovely poem, Zubin. maybe you should write some more"
Thanks, well I only write like this when I heavily feel about something..but I'll try to write more often.. :)

"AND A WARM NEVER ENDING HUG FROM MOI!!!"...Thats why I Love you.. :)

*Hugz you back* ^_^

Zubin said...

@Dr. Sana:

Thanks for liking it.. :p

"da sort of girl dat i am, im always rydin an emotional rollercoaster."
So you are wicked AND moody.. :p

"n yeah sumtymz i feel dat im just a manipulated version of my own self.... =P if u noe wot dat means."
Obviously I know what that means.. :p

And when are you doing the tag, doctor?

Zubin said...

@Cecilia

Hey..WC here.

"I loved this..its so true..and pretty deep too.."
Thanks.. :)

"u wrote it im guessin..funny how we bloggers write at the best n worst times- or atleast I do"
Its true, I write my best when I am down.. :)

Thanks, I am already smiling.. :)

Zubin said...

@Enchanted Illusionz:

Fan?? Yay..I have one too now :p..Thanks.. :D

Hmm..yes exactly, If we don't let it out it keeps aggregating...and at times nobody is there to share the remorse, but only ourselves.. :)

Zubin said...

@Vikram a.k.a Vicky urf [V]:

Thank you bro.. :)
Yes it does..yes it does..indeed.

Neeku said...

=) My day is still overwhelming.. have been super duper busy with too many things/issues at the moment... but you telling me that I resember Kate Winslet sort of made me smile... Ghosh she is goregeous indeed... infact so did che... so was sort of in happy mood for a while...

Anwyays. hope you doing good too...

Thank you for checking up on me =) will be back soon :)

Preeti said...

baby, i love you too...very very much...
:-)

Agnes said...

I don't think crying erases the pain. I think it just acknowledges it.

Heart'n'Soul said...

Nice one Zubi (hope cn cll u tht)

I think we say laughter is the best medicine cuz tht keeps us alibe, we cnt keep cryin always can we? tears r desperate measures which need to be let out once in a while but not all the time cuz world laughs with u whn u laugh but mocks at u whn u cry too much

No one likes sumonw who sulks all the time n cnt take cntrl of thr life... simple

Keshi said...

very well-written! Thats why it seems like it comes from a REAL experience.


**I may not be real, just a manipulation of myself
but sometimes even reality...
.....is not reality


loved those lines the best. somehow it hit home!


Keshi.

Nidhi said...

nice thought . i never thought about it, as u have put crying could be the last resort, maybe we choose to wear a smile cuz its positive and stronger, tears are sign of weakness and denotes negativity.

Zubin said...

@Neeku:
Anything that makes you smile.. :)
In fact I feel good that I played some part in that..

And you seriously do look like her :)

I am better...and have a very hectic weak ahead..So wouldn't have time to even think of anything...Its a blessing in disguise..sort of...! :D

Zubin said...

@preeti:

Thanks..you are the sweetest.. :)

Zubin said...

@Agnes

WC to my blog.. :)

"I don't think crying erases the pain. I think it just acknowledges it."

Actually it does...It relaxes a lot.
Especially when you have just 'yourself' at your disposal.. :)

Thanks for dropping by.

Zubin said...

@Div:

Yes you can call me that. :)

"we cnt keep cryin always can we? tears r desperate measures which need to be let out once in a while but not all the time"
I never said we should always be crying...but once in a while we have to let it out..!! :)

"cuz world laughs with u whn u laugh but mocks at u whn u cry too much"
To be frank I don't care about the whole world, when you suffocate nobody knows...only YOU feel the pain. :) and then I never said we should cry out in open. But maybe when nobody is around...once in a while, to make sure we still are humane.. :)

"No one likes sumonw who sulks all the time n cnt take cntrl of thr life... simple"
Who says we have to live to make people like us. Its about liking ourselves :)

But ya..taking control of your life IS important.

Zubin said...

@Keshi:

Thank you keshi.
I always write as per my own experiences.. :)

Zubin said...

@Nidhi:

Yes they are negative, but too much of positivity is bad too. Especially when you know whats going on inside. We need to strike balance...hai na? :)

Trinaa said...

haaaaaaaw..dont be so sad.. end mein sab thik ho jata hai.. n tears really help u? of course u feel somewht less burdened bt at d end of d day u need laughter n smiles 2 get back to normal dontchya?

Trinaa said...

oh n i like d 6th pic..its fab! (d photofunia thingy)

Preeti said...

ZUBIIIINNNN...

me not likes you not being around!!!

:(

come back soon

Bhai with Chai said...

y r sad posts so cool! they jus always strike this chord.. and it feels wow to have read this one.. esp the ending!..

Nidhi said...

right.. balace hona bhi jaru hai

eodeo said...

loved it. thank you